To that one 4chan anon who found my NG page and worried that Im suicidal because of my wallowing in self-pity!

Im fine!

Mostly!

I have a drinking problem and a comfort-eating addiction but Im also in therapy, Ive taken up a sewing hobby and have a loving and supportive immediate family, as well as a precious and deeply important texan boyfriend that all keep me attached to this life

Im not suicidal! Im just deeply nihilistic and dispassionate about life!

NOT THE SAME THING!

..I dont think

anyway Im not going anywhere

I need to repay my debts to all the people who have helped me and lifted me up, and Im fairly sure they would demand my continued existence as payment.