I kind of

died inside

hard

I tried a couple times to get my shit together and make something of myself, and I failed because ofcourse I did, noone establishes themselves in the world on their first few tries

But uh, my attempts and failures completely broke me

So Ive been just existing a hollow existence for the last 5 years trying to, at a fucking GLACIAL speed, self-repair the breakage from completely normal and natural fuckups

¯\_(ツ)_/¯